The Harsh Truth

In John 10:10 He says, "I came to give life with joy abundance"(VOICE). For the past couple of months, in my small group we've been diving in and learning what it looks like to live an abudant life in several different aspects such as prayer, community, joy, contentment, and many more other things! This past week, we asked ourselves: Am I living the life that Jesus gave me abundantly? I'm not going to lie, it's a scary thought for me. A convicting one as well. I'm the kind of person that likes getting the job "done" and a lot of times that means that I tried to check things of a list, consider them done, and then move on with the next task. I realized that I had been doing something similar when it comes to my walk with Christ. Read my Bible: check! Pray: check! Watch a service online or listen to a podcast: check! I mean, I love doing these things and I love that they are part of my routine. Something has been missing though and it has been very hard to figure out what it is exactly. Lately, I've been feeling like my life is constantly driven by fear. I chose to do things and not to do things because I'm so afraid of disrupting the way things are in my life. I feel like that's why I've never been able to give my 100% to this blog. I'm constantly afraid of not doing it right. I constantly feel like I have nothing important to share with my readers. It's like I'm waiting for the moment where things line up and everything is looking perfect, then I make my "bold" move. Before that happens, I just stand in the sideliness frozen by fear. Honestly, I'm done with fear! I had to ask myself: Am I willing to step up, even if it means that it won't be perfect? Yes! It isn't about having your plan or life perfectly outlined, it's about always doing the next thing in front of you to the best of your ability. Know that if you're feeling like this or if you've ever felt like this, your life counts! Your presence matters to the kingdom of God! You're vital!