Change Of perspective

Today, I gave my first presentation of the semester and as part of the assignment... I had to let one of my peers film me during the presentation. I was very anxious. Most times I feel embarrassed when speaking in public because of my Mexican accent, my dramatic facial expressions, and my lack of "smart" words. 

After the presentation, I kept pondering about the things I forgot to mention in the presentation, the things that I shouldn't have said, the things I could've done better. I was critcizing myself and every aspect of who I am as a speaker. I was bringing myself down. 

Once class was over, I asked my instructor for feedback and he told me to take a look at my video. I insisted since I know that I am my toughest critic. He told me that I had an amazing vocal variation, good facial expression, and a strong presence. 

A lot of people have told me before that I am a good speaker and I never seem to believe it. I realized that I constantly bring myself down and question my abilities. Why do I do that? I honestly have no idea. This semester, I have to present 6 more times. Will I still get nervous? Yes. What's going to be different? My perspective. I don't want to questions my capability to give a good presentation. I want to embrance my talents and  get better as a I practice. 

Practice self-love. 
Love yourself the way you LOVE others.
Don't be so tough on yourself.
Believe in yourself.
You are TALENTED.

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